The War Against Myself Was Never Worth It

A Reflection

I am a work in progress and I am aware that there’s a whole host of internal issues I have to resolve to become more adaptable and emotionally healthier.

And even when I grow more conscious of them and develop proper strategies to deal with them, healing isn’t guaranteed to be linear or exponential and there will be days when it feels like I’m falling apart and I’d take it as a sign that I’ll never be whole again.

But I’ve realized one thing — there never had to be any war against myself. There never had to be so much angst that I succumbed to desolation during times when I really needed to be optimistic to save myself from spiraling down again.

I made things far more complicated and twisted truths that didn’t need to turn out so warped that I used them as weapons for self-defeat.

I used “life isn’t fair” as a way to keep myself from going after what I wanted and said “yes” to things that didn’t align with my long-term vision.

I used “be realistic” as a way to crush my own dreams and give up too early when things got difficult — but now I think the best course of action is to adopt a growth mindset and persist anyway because the other alternative is far worse and strips me of autonomy and makes me disconnected from myself.

I used “you are a nobody” as a way to justify treating myself poorly and neglecting emotional and mental health issues that were far more serious than I thought.

But at the core of who I am, I stand for self-liberation. I’ve always been a creative and a dreamer at heart because that was my natural inclination. I’ve always been future-oriented. I’ve always wanted life to be as simple as possible, both for self-preservation and for freedom in the future.

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